Putting all the pieces together

Working with Ulysses writing app, getting it linked to medium and my blog site has had some challenges and some major successes. I have been able to use a free plugin call Jetpack though my wp-admin site to allow direct publishing to my site. This doesn’t allow me to see comments but it does make posting a lot easier. I was able to publish a short writing I did on the fears that I am dealing with. I know it didn’t have a lot of details about those fears, but I am not at liberty to talk about that right now.

One day soon I will be able to and I will post more about it. So don’t feel that you are being left in the dark for too long. I will keep posting about the things I can and will post about the things I can’t as soon as I am able to.

Going back to Ulysses and blogging, I like how I can write in markup and not have to worry about styling my writing. That all the styling is done right at time of publishing. Using the build in tools that Ulysses has to offer.

I have read a lot about how your post should look when blogging, writing on Medium and other post. I feel that no matter how much I read there is a part of me that thinks all of that gets away from actually writing. All the posts and medium articles about how you should post and what it should look like. The formatting and all the styling. That is is the only way to get viewers.

What happens if I just writing to voice my opinion or how my day is going? What about if I write about what goes on in my life and how I am feeling? Per the instructions on the internet, this would not get people reading my blog or my post. I don’t think that is the case. I think readers come to you for what you have to offer and stay for what you continue to offer.

I think we spend to much time thinking about how were are going to style a blog post or a Medium article, that we miss out on the chance to write and share something with the world. If I had to wait until I get the styling correct, then I would never post anything. Isn’t the main advice that people are talking about is just start? There is no reason to be perfect. That if you wait to be perfect than you will product nothing.

Then why tell me how I should write blog posts or Medium article and not just tell me to write? I feel writing is the part that we are missing. I don’t know if I can write compelling how to’s or articles like that. I think I can write a compelling blog post about the things that I am going through on a daily basis or weekly basis with the hope that someone finds that is helps them get through their day. That is helps people know they are not alone in their struggles.

Hello World!

Welcome to my site, thank you for coming. This site is my blog site where I am currently working on things. It will change from time to time as I find what works for me and what I find to be the most please in to the eye. I hope you enjoy. Please feel free to comment on what you see so far and what you like or don’t like.

Fear

What am I afraid of? Is it truly fear that I am feeling when I have thought regarding things that are going on in my life? Do I feel that the things that I am feeling are legitimate? 

I am not even sure how to put these fears into words on this page or how to tell the story behind them. I am not even sure I can go into the details or if I even remember them as clearly as I thought I did. 

That date keeps changing and the fears keep rolling in. One thing is a relieve but it adds another feel. How to I do what needs to be done day in and day out to keep things from changing. The years will be long and the time will be hard, but truly how do I continue. The last two years have changed my life and I am not even sure how I would put those two years into words on what has happened.

I can put somethings into words but others I don’t even know where to begin, and further still somethings I can’t even talk about for reasons I can’t discuss here. Or can I? I am sure I can but I won’t be able to put them out into the world until a later date.

Also if I put them out into the world what would the world think of me? Is that the way I want to paint the digital picture of my life? I don’t want to hide for the things I have done or the life that I have create. Will my story help someone in need? Will it guide someone in the right direction or will it destroy me even more?

The thoughts I have had over the last 2 years have been some of the most scary thoughts I have had in my entire life. I hope during the next stage of this whole thing that I don’t continue to have those thoughts.